Some people drive their whole lives without getting into any accident.

And here i am, still on my "P" plate, and i got into my first accident.

Was trying to cut into another lane (coz the lane i was on had road works), when i bumped into the car on that lane (was judging the distance, guess i under-estimated it), and things went hell.

Lucky it was a small bump, no one was injured. But i damaged the other car's rear bumper with some small scratches, while i dented the the license plate of our car. My dad got out to inspect the damage (and to talk to the other guy), and it seems like there's nothing much...

... however, last i heard, apparently that little bump knocked the other guy's rear bumper out of place, and there might be a need to replace that whole bumper... god knows how much it'll be.

But i'm prepared to pay the cost of the repairs.



That's nothing compared to the beating this incident gave to my already waning confidence. Just the day before, i ferried my fellow colleagues from smurfy's wedding place to a nearby MRT station, all was well. I thought that, maybe, i could do this.

Apparently not.

I keep telling myself, that at least it wasn't a big one, just some small scratches and a rear bumper replacement. But nothing can comfort the fact that due to my carelessness and ill-judgement of the situation, i had caused this unhappy incident to happen.

My parents didn't say much, but i know, they must be disappointed, upset and angry that it had happened. It took me so much persuasion to let me go on that solo drive the previous day, and this had to happen.

I feel so upset, so disappointed with myself. It really seems that i couldn't do anything right. I keep making mistakes, and no matter how hard i try, the same mistakes keep coming back to haunt me.

The train of life is gradually loosing its steam.. running out of charcoals to keep it running... someday, the charcoals will be gone. That will be the day i cease existance.

Question is: how long will the charcoals burn? how much is there left? where can i get more charcoals to keep my train of life going?

HOW LONG CAN I LIVE WITH MYSELF??

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