Sunday, August 31, 2008
...and exhilaration (2 of 2)
Today went for my 2nd attempt for my IPPT... last week tried once, failed, as per usual, the Achilles's heel is the 2.4km run... my last attempt lasted 4minutes... just could take it!
I went for practice run on tuesday, it was ok... but feeling cautious, i intended to practice again on Thurdsay, but since i had to settle my mioPlan ASAP (and th
at's how i get my new phone), so it was cancelled...
so today, i kept thinking... i must do it.. i must do it...
and i did it! The last 2 minutes on the treadmill was hell.. i kept wanting to give up... but someone's voice, encouragement, kept me on...
and i did!
YEA!!!
3:15 PM
Of suprises... (1 of 2)
I knew they had a plan...
A plan to celebrate my birthday...
When i chanced upon a communique between my dear dear and my good friends, i tot was prepared for anything they can throw at me...
Well, i thought wrong...
so, when my dear dear told me we're going to her friend's baby's full month celebration, i didn't expect anything...
but guess what...i was wrong!
It was a surprise celebration!
My dear dear brought me to Takashimaya on the pretext of "buying a gift of the baby"... then we went to lunch at Breeks...
and the whole gang was there waiting for me!
Video of me being surprised (courtesy of Claire): http://clairexintian.multiply.com/video/item/69/Victor_Bdae_Surprise_30082008
Photos taken during the surprise (again, thanks to Claire for the photos):http://clairexintian.multiply.com/photos/album/148/Victor_Surprise_Bdae_Celebration_30082008
Really, thanks for the surprise and gift! Love u all!
And, thanks to my dear dear, for plotting with them and giving me the surprise!!
2:56 PM
New Life!
After 1-2years of service to me, the time has come for me to retire the faithful (albeit battered and chipped) Sony Ericsson W700i...
As a birthday gift from my dad, he told me to pick a new phone....since my sis got the SE C702i, i decided to opt for the Symbian-based, 5MP camera smartphone SE G900...
5MP! Shiok! Nothing beats quality pictures! (FYI the pic of my old phone was taken on the G900).
2:32 PM
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Such a failure.
Last nite had a little disagreement over a small matter with my dear dear, which caused her to feel upset and disappointed with me...
Reflecting back, i realized it was uncalled for me to react that way... its no wonder she's upset with me...
Allthough she has since forgiven me... i cannot help but hate myself.
Why did i react that way?
Was it really necessary?
Stomach feeling queasy now... feeling sick.... sick with myself...
time to reflect and repent....
3:40 AM
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Carebears!

Heh... Claire got my dear dear shan a pink carebear wearing a Tee with a photo of me and my dear dear....
I was sooo envious!! SO CUTEE!
Then my dear dear show off to mee.. make me jealous...EMO!
Then heng Claire got me a blue carebear with the same printed Tee....
Whoppie!! Thanks Claire!~!!
Tonite can show off to my dear dear!!!
7:46 AM
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Reality of life
..is that, in the end, you're destined to pass on...
for those not in the loop, my grandma passed away on Saturday, 02 August, 2008. She was warded to TTSH on early Friday morning, with respiratory problems. She was then put on respirator, but her conditioned weaken as the day goes on; fearing for the worst, my dad booked an early sunday morning flight (00:10H) flight back. She passed on 11:56pm, saturday... my dad didn't get to see her...
On the Saturday itself, i visited her with my mother in the morning... at that time, her situation wasn't very good already... then after that i went down to my dear dear shan's place, then we proceeded to Tampines for a viewing. We then meet her batch-girls for dinner...
When we finally went to visit my grandma, it was 11+ in the nite... a few relatives were there... i brought my dear dear to see my grandma... when we left, it was already 11.30pm. My uncle stayed the nite to watch over her.
We had left the hospital and sent my sis back to school; was on the way home when my uncle called; i took the call and the sad news. We then re-routed to the hospital.
My mom was saying, perhaps she was holding out till i brought my dear dear to see her... after all i am the eldest grandson, perhaps she was concerned about my future, but seeing that i finally have a girlfriend, she could rest easy....
When we returned to the hospital, she was off the respirator... and silent... no sounds, no signs of breathing... but she look like she's sleeping... the sight will remain burned into memory.
When we finally completed all the paperwork and the basic arrangements for the funeral was done, it was already 2am. We all went home to rest; woke up at 4+am to accompany my mom to fetch my dad from the airport...
When we broke the news to my dad, he managed to take it quite well, but i can imagine how sad he feels inside..... then we went home to get watever rest we could...
Sunday came, and the decision was made for the funeral to be held at my place. Arrangements were made, and the 4 days of mourning started.
These 4 days were tiring... entertaining guests (special mention to my colleages, and especially Claire! Living west side, come to north-east! My thanks dear sis!), holding the nite vigil, prayers, etc.
During these days, my dear dear shan came down for 3 nights, helping watever way she can, giving support to me and my family... thanks dear dear!
Today, friday, was the cremation.
The sight of the casket entering the furnace was heart-renching...to see a life gone...


7:26 PM
Friday, August 01, 2008
Of surprises and Plans for future
The month of August is a special one, as it marks:
1. my 3 months together with my dear dear shan shan [1 August]
2. my dear dear's 2X birthday (age is a sensiitive figure... Censored!) [2 August]
So, to mark these 2 special occasions, i had a small bouquet of flowers sent to my dear dear's office yesterday [1 August]
well, gllad to say this little gift caused a small commotion in her office!! heh heh heh.....
Also, as part of our plans for our future, we went to Suntec Standard Charted Bank and opened our first joint e-$avers savings account!
No lock-ins, no minimum deposit!
So, as a small symbolic gesture, we had a small amount of $18 for our initial deposit!
I will be transferring more cash to contribute to our funds for the future....

10:59 PM